Executive dysfunction is a trait of autism, ADHD, and possibly other forms of neurospiciness. For me, it occurs when too much information enters my brain at once, causing me to panic, run away, or shut down. Sometimes the overload is external, like a sink full of dirty dishes, othertimes my brain works against itself.
When I write, it's very common for my brain to go, "How do I translate this idea into text?" It will then try to process this command, which leads to too many thoughts crashing into each other. I can understand little to nothing through the mess, and I'm too overwhelmed sort everything out. To avoid or recover from this mess, I seek a distraction.
Executive dysfunction also impacts my short term memory, so there's a good chance I'll forget I'm supposed to be writing. Ten, twenty, thirty or more minutes pass before I remember to write. Then I look at the screen and "How do I translate this idea into text?" reappears.
One workaround I use is stream of conciousness writing. If I can't process the raw ideas, then I'll just spit words onto the screen. Sometimes it helps me figure out what happens next, or how to express my next few sentences. Other times, I'm still stuck on "how do I prose?"
My other tactic is acceptance. I'm not a hare of a writer, able to sprint out words upon words. I am a tortoise, always slow, but steady.
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